Morning all, I haven't been here for a long time as Ive been suffering with my mental health quite badly since the pandemic changed my life/business. Before this industry, I worked in the electrical industry, but I decided on a career in ground maintenance as I had anxiety issues and checking my work, so I thought this would be much better and help get better.
Fast forward to the current day, I've spent the last 7 years qualifying in this sector, gaining as much knowledge as possible, intending to specialise in the control of invasive plants such as Japanese knotweed, but picking up other work along the way, such as lawn weeds, hard surface moss control and more.
My issue is that after completing my Japanese Knotweed training, I started to struggle with my OCD once more, which relates to intrusive thoughts rather than cleaning or counting, which most people think OCD is. I constantly worry about being sued, poisoning people, animals and wildlife, and causing a significant spillage to the point I haven't sprayed for a long time, sold my knotweed equipment, and basically spend days every week ruminating about doing the thing I'm passionate about, as Ive lost my lust for general gardening.
This all sounds really odd, and I can appreciate that, but even if I were to stack shelves in a supermarket, my OCD would attach something to that line of work. I'm extremely knowledgeable about weeds. They've been my focus for the last 7 years, but Im not sure how to move forward. I did set up a dormant limited company last year as a way to mitigate the risks but dissolved it that same year.
Can anyone offer any pointers, or suggestions, or does anyone else suffer with an anxiety condition such as OCD, as I would love to move on with my business and life.