I am not sure what I should do next. Sorry for the ramble.
Had to abruptly stop my business as my husband got very ill and he died 2 weeks ago. The NHS dropped him right in it due to their ineptitude and I may take them to court. Whilst on holiday in Germany in August he was in such pain and the pain meds he got here did not work anymore I took him to A&E there and within hours they told us he is very ill and a day later had the devastating news of stage 4 lung cancer which has spread all around his body. How can this happen if he has been going to the doctors every few weeks complaining of the pains and breathing problems he has? We are very sad and upset.
I ordered this really nice Urn for his ashes on Amazon. I have not received (I waited all day at home) it and Amazon stated because the App says it has been delivered and handed to me personally it has been delivered. Well the driver/delivery person made a mistake or is a thief. I went on there and ordered the same one again. When customer services called me I complained I told them on the phone I need it by Monday morning latest as that's when the cremation is happening. I cant believe I have to fight to get a flipping urn. I just got an email from them and because the tracker said it got delivered to me it must be so and no refund. Well they want a war they will get one.
Obviously most of my customers now have new gardeners and would only take me back if the new gardeners are not performing well. I have 2 customers who are coming back to me. This means starting from scratch which is OK. I am thinking of changing my business model anyway. So will change my website. But I am not sure if I even want to start up gardening again. Maybe wait up the crappy weather until March. Maybe just go really small scale but very upmarket.
I also had to stop my landscaping and garden design course which I was to finish next summer. Thankfully the online academy has given me an extension until 2020. That is so cool and gratefully taken.
Will be getting a dog as well. I applied for a particular pooch from a rescue online. Hopefully I can get her and she will be accompanying me on my jobs.
One thing I have noticed is that the hospital gardens all over London where we were are pretty boring and uninspiring or literally non-existant. Maybe join a charity or group that does gardening for free at hospitals or hospices. It was pretty depressing to see the green spaces look so sad.
Anyway don't want to depress you.
Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Happy and Prosperous 2018!